happy thanksgiving...

You cut yourself because you are constantly forced
to act like you are someone else. Chances
you're a Borderliner, maybe you're just afraid
of losing people. You try to be what your
friends and family want you to be, so they
won't leave you. And you look like it's the
real you, and you are very good at deceiving
people, but late at night, when you are all
alone, you take all the anger and frustration
out on yourself.

What Kind Of Cutter Are You? (~TrIgGeRiNg~ pics)
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i dont know why. but suicide thoughts are unexpectantly coming back into my thoughts again...i dont like it. its thanksgiving and i spent all morning in my room crying. i dont know whats wrong with me and i cant take all this madness. i just dont know what to do anymore..
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    staind x epiphany

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Bored? ((Over 100 questions))

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[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::Angelica
Birthplace ::vina del mar, chile
Age ::15
Age you act ::umm 15?
Current location ::west bloomfield
Eye color ::dark brown
Hair color ::black
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::ambidextrous
Zodiac sign? ::capricorn
Height? ::5'0
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::chilean
Your hair ::naturaly curly but i straighten it a lot
Your fears ::cockroaches
Your perfect room ::black with silver sparkles all over it a bed the shape of a circle and its built into the floor and its a water bed with posters of things i love and a kick ass stereo system
What you practically do in a day ::wake up, put on my uniform, go to school,school, home, change, hw, shower, and bed
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::like. omg. fuck. i love you. (And a typical all girls catholic school saying) im horny as fuck.
Phrases you overuse ::ugh u piss me off u fuck monkey
Your first thought when you wake up ::i need sleep
Your greatest accomplishment ::gettin used to myself and when i stopped cutting
Something you want to do ::go to the olympics in swimming
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::mcdonalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::christina
Chocolate or vanilla ::vanilla
Adidas or Nike ::adidas
Black or white ::black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::billss, bitch. i be pimpin now
Burgers or hot dogs ::hot dogs. yummy
Egypt or France ::france. bonjour
Rock or rap ::rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::yes
Cuss ::yes
Sing well ::hell no
Sing in the shower ::yes
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::yes
Believe in yourself ::no
Like taking these longass surveys? ::hell yeah
Play an instrument ::yes
Want to go to college? ::yes
Want to get married? ::yes
Want to have children? ::yes
Think you're a health freak? ::nope
Get along with your parents ::nope
Get along with your siblings? ::nope
Think you're popular ::hell no
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::yes
Drank alchohal ::yes
Smoke ::yes
Get high ::nope
Done any drugs ::nope
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::nope
Been on stage ::nope
Gone skinny dipping ::yes
Been dumped ::nope
Dyed your hair ::nope
Stolen anything ::yes
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::hmmm its a tie between emily and jeanette
Loudest ::EMILY
Most shy ::katie (freshman)
Blondest ::trish
Smartest ::jeanette
Kindest ::laura
Best personality ::lindz and goodroe
Most talented ::bridget. she makes me laugh
Best singer ::jeanette
Most ghetto ::caley
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::ashley (sorrie babe)
Pain in the ass ::jen. ugh please..GET OUT OF THE ALCOVE
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::jen
Funniest ::bridget. jeanette. laura. goodroe. lindz. and andrea.
Best person for advice ::bridget or goodroe.
Dependable ::goodroe or bridget.
Trustworthy ::bridget.
Druggie ::katie (junior)
Most likely to end up in jail ::i dunno.
Person you've known the longest ::caley
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::i got married to jon in scotland it was so romantic...
Last nightmare ::i hung myselfon the ceiling in the basement at school
Car ride ::with kara and caley singing one, two step by ciara
Last time you cried ::last night because i miss jon
Last movie seen ::soul plane
Last movie rented ::soul plane unrated
Last book read ::romeo and juliet by shakespeare
Last word said ::im sorrie
Last curse word said ::fuck
Last time you laugh ::during 6th hour
Last phone call ::alex.
Last CD played ::smile empty soul
Last song you listened to ::bottom of a bottle
Last annoyance ::emily. she was very loud today
Last IM ::ehren
Last weird encounter ::running into steve kempany with skinny dippin the fuckin cold water
Last person you hugged ::carey
Last person you yelled at ::my mom
Last time you wore a skirt ::today. its part of my uniform
Last time you've been evil ::umm today
Sarcastic? ::today
Last time you fought with your parents ::today
Last time you wished upon a star ::a month ago
Played Truth or Dare ::a year
Spent quality time alone ::today
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::nope
Do you feel lonely ::yeah
Ever TP'd someone's house ::nope
How about egging someone's house ::nope
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::uh wtf?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::hmm just 50
Yo Momma ::joe momma
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::hell yeah
What do you think of George Bush? ::hmm damn hick
Any secret fetishes? ::handcuffs
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::yes
How many languages do you speak? ::2 spanish and english
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::nope
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) ::nooooo

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    smile empty soul x nowhere kids

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April Fool's Prank

i feel so lonely so unwanted today
inside i am black and always grey
you said you loved me which is not true
i am nothing by the means of you
when you hugged me i could never feel down
and hwen you kissed i was on a love cloud
being with you felt like a dream
but nothing is always as it seems
the next day i had recieved a devasting call
it wasnt you and i certianly didnt expect it at all
it was your "real" girlfriend who said i should die
that you didnt want me and i should go cry
i immediatly hung up my heart in my throat
i decided to call you to see if this was some kind of joke
the phone rand and rand no one picked up
and with that i just had enough
tears filling my eyes i fell to the ground
sobbing and sniffling i made no other sound
i quickly stood up walking into the counter
i reached in the drawers to make something clearer
fumbling around i found a sharp knife
a smile on my face, i knew this was right
i gave you one last call left a plain simple note
i took some paper and i wrote
when i was done i placed it on my bed
and i took the knight and cut my veins till i was dead
as i layed dying on the cold floor
i heard the answering machine one call more
it was him saying april fools but silly fool
but the time the message was done he knew he did something cruel
the next day he read my suicide goodbye
crying he wondered how and why
little did he know it was his stupid prank
and now his life will never be the same...

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    yellowcard x only one

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June 26th, 2003

you make me feel special you make me feel pretty
but little did i know what you wanted to do to me
friday night you called me and wanted to hang out
but luckily for me i said no, parents no doubt
saturday night came and you called to say im coming to get you
but what was coming up i didnt want true
you picked me up in your tinted black car
starting to make out, i didnt think we could go far
you handed me a drink and said drink for me and you
as i took the last sip you leaned over and said i wont hurt you...
an hour later i woke to find myself undressed
i looked in the mirror and i was just a mess
over in the seat i saw him looking at me
he looked very angry and pissed as can be
asking whats wrong he said that he wanted to have sex
i told him no and he needed to relax
next thing i knew he took me outside
tied to me a tree sure to leave me to die
he came back soon and there he raped me
screaming and crying he wouldn't stop hurting me
finally when he was done he left me in the dark
all alone at night in the park
next thing i knew i saw two bright lights
twisting and turning the ropes held on tight
closer and closer his car came at me
smashing his car right into the tree
next morning came my parents worried sick
wondering why i didnt come home surely left them ticked
the phone rand and my mom started to cry
my dad listened in and wanted to know why
joe slammed his car into a tree
but lucky for him, he slammed into me
the impact killed me, not him
and all i can say, is i still love him
he did out love, not for pleasure
and luckily for him, they said it was no murder
two years from then hes still living free
beasue no one yet has found my body
joe isnt stupid, he burned my body and threw it in the lake
he even had the nerve to come to my wake
my parents still wonder what happened that night
but i'll tell you one thing, his plan went right...

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Leave a comment with your name, and if you want to know what I really think of you, I'll reply and tell you. No lies, all honesty. Then post this in yours...sooo go for it

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    enrique x balimos

I Am The World's Greatest

I am a mountain
I am a tall tree
ooooh, I am a swift wind,
Sweepin' the country

I am a river,
Down in the valley
ooooh, I am a vision
And I can see clearly

If anybody asks you who I am
Just stand up tall
Look 'em in the face and say

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey I made it, mmmmmm
I'm the world's greatest

And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes
I can feel it, mmmmmm
I'm the world's greatest
(the worlds greatest, worlds greatest , for ever )

I am a giant
I am an eagle
ooh, I am a lion
Down in the jungle

I am a marchin' band
I am the people
ooh, I am a helping hand
I am a hero

If anybody asks you who I am
Just stand up tall
Look 'em in the face and say

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey I made it, mmm
I'm the world's greatest mmm

And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes
I can feel it, mmm
I'm the world's greatest

In the ring of life i'll rain love (i will rain)
and the world will notice a king (oooohhhhh yahhhhh)
when theres darkness i'll shine a light (shine a light)
and views of success reflect in me

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey I made it,(said i made it )
I'm the world's greatest

(I'm that little bit)
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes (i can)
I can feel it (feel it)
I'm the world's greatest

I'm that star up in the sky(star in the sky)
I'm that moutain peak up high (oh yes i am)
Hey i made it
I'm the worlds greatest

and i'm that little bite of hope (little bit of hope)
when my backs against the ropes (my backs against the ropes)
i can feel it (I can feel)
I'm the worlds greatest

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that moutain peak up high
hey i made it
I'm the worlds greatest

I'm that little bit of hope
when my backs against the ropes
i can feel it (now i can just feel it)
i'm the worlds greatest

she's the greatest (can u feel it)
Can u Feel it
she's the greatest (can u feel it)
can u feel it (and i'm so alive)
she's the greatest
can u feel it
she's the greatest
Can u feel it
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aceangel 7 1 1: like any guy
aceangel 7 1 1: bring whipped cream and strawberries
aceangel 7 1 1: i will give you sexual pleasures

ahaha i love annie.

today stinks

ok so i woke up. called my bitch, max cuz we were supposed to chill today but he got too sick off shrooms. silly max..so now we cant hang out :( phooey. but i called rich and hes going to go to homecoming with me! yay! and i was thinking about going to shop for my dress today..but eh, no thanks. lol. but i gotta go. peace out bitch.

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    pink floyd x money

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i love kyle minch. when i call max's cell and hes too intoxicated to talk, kyle fills me in on whats goin on. i love it. :tehe:
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    the real world